Happy birthday

Happy birthday to me..,

this is my first birthday in Sydney( it was already yesterday thought, cuz it's 27 already), without my friends ( from home) and family (real family)

but I had a nice time. I still have birthday cake and presents from my extended family here.

my friends here are so nice as well.

I got many facebook wishes too.

but I missed something, but so important.

someone that I am expecting to wish me a happy birthday, he doesn't even remember my birthday.

I celebrated my last birthday with him, but not this year. he doesn't think of me, even a little.

i hate to talk about this kinda thing.

like I'm so week or "lebay"

but, what can I do??

it's good because he doesn't know this blog, so He won't read this, that's why this is the only place that I can use to talk about him.

OMG, it's too bad

I've been trying to forget him for ages, but it just didn't work

he keep coming back to my mind.

and today, I am so sad, he forget!! I am really nothing to him.

I really wanna move on and forget him.

but I guess it's about the time.

may be I'll be fine soon

with this, when he's totally forget me, I think may be it's gonna be easier for me to forget him too.

it's really not worth it to think about him all the time.

I deserve better I guess..

It's my birthday..!! I should be happy, he can't ruin my day!! no! he can't!

Ok, I quit!! I'll moving on.

may be we're just not meant together.

well, I'm quite sure now, it was just me.

I'm sure, for him, I was nothing, my just like another girl that he knows.

like what he said to me "nothing serious"

how stupid was I? that I believe when he said he likes me too.

now I'm sure it was just another "nothing serious" for him.

well, my bad, to easy to fall in love to this guy.

anyway.., I'll move,I promise my self, I'll move.

well, so long then

:)

Si Cakep :p

Computer Lab, UTS, 6.52 pm

Post yang ini akan ditulis dalam bahasa indonesia..soalnya jangan sampai ketahuan objek yg sedang dibicarakan.
Sooo....aku betah betah aja di kampus hari Sabtu, disaat seharusnya aku ke birthday party-nya temenku. soalnya tutorku sumpah mati cakep.hahaha
ngeceng is the best relaxation I guess..:p

Jadi..aku pura2 serius di depan komputer, padahal indra dengarku sibuk mendengarkan suara tutorku yg cakep itu.
duhh..susah..panjang banget: tutorku yg cakep" mari kita panggil saja dia si merah soalnya dia pake jumper merah) :p

sekali2 aku bakal ngelirik ke arah dia yg sedang ngasih pengarahan ke temanku. sekarang! barusan aja, aku lirik lagi..hahaha siluetnya...maaak jaaang...luar biasa...kaya dewa apollo (??? kaya aku pernah liat dewa apollo aja)
tapi ini orang emang bener2..berhak dapet nilai 8.5 :)
sepertinya dia seumuranku..plus dia tutor mata kuliah modelling software..
tau ndiri dong..dari dulu aku emang suka ama cow2 geeks( I mean bukan geeks berkacamata kaku kaya di pelem2, tapi cow yg so..into computer stuff) apalagi dia juga lulusan arsitektur..so...gilaa aja...high quality..

hahaha..sempat ya..aku nyempatin diri buat nulis blog tentang cowok?
maklum..beberapa minggu terakhir ini, aku seperti anjing ( terlalu kasar, kucing deh..) kecebur got. dengan segala tugas2, dn aku bahkan tudak sempat bersosialisasi..no party for last one month..:( week end at uni lab???? what kinda life is that???
tapi untung ada eye candy ini...hahaha setidaknya aku nggak suntuk2 bgt laa...:p

Tetapi..ngeceng hanyalah ngeceng yaa?? gimana caranya bisa deketin ini orang ya??
hahaha...secara dia tutor bow...tuuutooor..
dan tentu saja dia sudah punya pacar..( masih berdoa..mudah2an nggak..hahahaa)
sudahlah...cukup sudah tulisan menyampah kali ini...benar2 kurang kerjaan.
seharusnya aku ngerjain tugas, malah jadi ngalur ngidul nggak jelas gini. :p

Hoaam..what now?? pulang kah? aku sedang nunggu temenku konsultasi, terus baru pulang. pengen makan di luar..tapi no hepeng innih...
baiklah..sambil nunggu mau ngegame lagi..mumpung di kampus, internet super cepat, saatnya memanen di farmville.
ini lagi...aku heran, kenapa aku nggak bisa ngilangin kebiasaan ngegame yg semakin menjadi2 ini...God!! it's just crazy!! terlalu menyita waktu. anyway..let's harvest!! :p

talk to you later :)

Trying to not complaint

Weekend...but guess where am I right now, at Uni, trying to do my assignment. trapped with facebook though..LoL

Hmmm..what am I gonna tell you today, probably another complain, I don't know why, the conditions and situation are not so good lately..sigh..

Anyway, I'm still fighting to survive. OK, here's the things..I guess my lecture and my classmate think that I'm the most stupid person in the class. yesterday was so suck, my lecture couldn't stop comparing my works and the best student's work in front of the whole classmate. and then he also said about some people are running so fast and some people are running slowly while we have the same amount of times to go to the finish line. the worst part is he said that i am crawling (God!! it was really put my confident down!!), but in my heart i kept telling myself that " it's OK..it's OK, it doesn't matter they think you are stupid..let it be just in their mind" I promise myself to prove that I'm not like what their think. well, I don't wanna prove it to them, because it's not important, instead I wanna prove to myself that I'm not like that.

Hmm...o!! another thing is I'm planning to move from my apartment, trying to find a cheaper accommodation, so i could try to solve my financial problem. but guess what, I might will stay in a living room.. well, i used to have my own room, I didn't even share with my sister..but now..? hiks..I have to live in the living room..well, i can't tell my parent about this..or they gonna be too much worry again..LooL..i called it "lebay" in my language..

Well, my friend is coming, so i think i'm gonna work with my assignment now..

ps: i'm having tothache now..It's killing me..:(